You Happened, Damn!!

Delhi Airport
Me: I still remember the railway station. I smile alone and people keep on asking me about it.
Arnav: Its easy with you, I keep on saying this. See we were staying together, we never made out yet I know your favorite bra! (a smile of mischief again)
Me: Shut up Dhillon!! Get a coffee for me.
Arnav: You pay, I don’t have change.
Me: Typical Arnav.. Laika must hate you for this!
Arnav: Yeah! Only if I care to go for coffee with her..
Me: I thought you were dating..
Arnav: (laughed) Meera, why didn’t you ask me to wait on Mumbai Airport. Think I’ll be back with your coffee..
I was blank, I didn’t have answer. As a lover, I must have stopped him once; but then as a friend I could never had loved to deny a good job opportunity. Arnav was back.
Me: Arnav, I thought you will be happy here.
Arnav: Is that all you thought about it? I don’t feel it that way..
Me: Arnav, I never thought a life without, I didn’t have anyone to fight with me over the lost chargers, I had no one to share the yummy chocolate cake, no one to hug me when I miss my mom, no one to dance with his boxers on my bed, no one to scold for his sutta . I lied to myself that I don’t love you. But I do. I lost a part of me when you left me. Everything seemed to be okay, but it was apparent.. Just apparent.. How can I make you wait for me, when I knew you don’t love me!
I was broken and weeping. I never wanted to open this side to him, it was burst of emotion. Suddenly, I saw a tear rolling down Arnav’s cheek.
Me: I’m sorry Arnav. I didn’t mean to hurt you in any way. Come on, talk to me… What happened?
Arnav: You happened damn.
Me: aaaahhh… What I’m supposed to say on this?
Arnav slithered and hugged me I can still remember his whisper when he was closest to me.
Arnav: I love you Meera.
I was shocked, literally shocked.
Arnav: Maya was right, always right. We never can think about anybody else. We didn’t see it, yet we were committed, though it was unknown to both of us, everybody else could see it. I didn’t even realize it when we were moving apart. I can sense it today, when I know you won’t always come here for me, I can no more take you granted.
Me: Shut your trap man. I need a hug; you have made me cry a lot.
Arnav: You know I have been dreaming about you marrying somebody else!
Me: You talk like a movie.
Arnav: Okies, so let’s get back to reality, kiss me! I miss your kiss..
Me: You are indeed an asshole.

That was a kiss of a life time. 

That was a luv-shuv ending of Meera and Arnav.
Some people always take the right decisions and some people take decision and then make it right. Meera and Arnav were amongst that second category. Soon, their facebook status turned to “married”.

Dil walon ki Delhi

2.35 a.m. Piyu’s hostel, Arnav on call…
Arnav: You know what… don’t hiss..
Me: Piyu is sleeping man.. She has got her class early morning. Waise I and Malhar had an awesome day today. We were at Toto’s garage, boozed like mad…..
Arnav: You sound sexy…
I didn’t know if I have to yell or to blush at this..
Me: What?... Mein kabse bad-bad kiye jaa rahi hoon.. and your just listening to my voice…!! Arnav Singh Dhillon.. jaan dedo..
Arnav: I’m tired man..
Me: Tired kyun?
Arnav: Was talking to Laika..
Me: Were you doing “ding-dong” on phone!
Arnav: And why should I even tell you…
Arnav was then quite close to his project partner Laika, she was supposed to be a typical “Delhi ki bandi”. I knew Arnav was trying hard for her.
As forced by Maya, I was to fly to Delhi this Friday.
Piyu and me planned to have our favorite pav bhaji on Thursday. It reminded me of our first meet and the way I was reluctant to meet him.. it was definitely nostalgic. I was smiling.
Piyu: Kya hua? Khaana..
Me: Nothing..
Those “nothings” are really sweet and are saved like personal moments.
Delhi, Maya and Girish’s home,
Maya: Girish and I were so curious to meet you..
Me: Yeah.. you look pretty post marriage.. Delhi suits you..
Girish: Come on Meera.. It can be my love…
We all laughed..  and I knew it was all fun to be with old friends again.. Though there was something disturbing me; yes, that was Arnav existence in Delhi.
Maya and me went for shopping when Girish was little busy with his work that evening.
Maya: Pink suits you.. this saree is perfect for you Meera..
Me: Yeah Arnav likes pink on me..
Maya: You miss him, don’t you?
Me: Kya fayda Maya, Laika is far more beautiful. I saw her pictures in Arnav’s profile!
Maya: They aren’t dating Meera. You both can’t withstand others, believe me.
Me: You think so?
Maya: You know, Girish has always liked a girl in school.. Those were the bad times. He was heartbroken and I remember how I slithered into his life and we are married now….
Me: If Arnav Singh Dhillon is so easy nut to crack..
Of course there is no limit to a “girl talk” but the bottom line was Maya has always believed or in some way would see our transitions.
Sunday, afternoon.
Maya: Yaar wo teri kal wali saree try kar na.. let’s see how it looks on you. Mein study me hoon..
Soon I heard somebody at the door…
Me: Who is there? Maya is that you?
I heard a vibrant voice, as if for which I have longed..as if I can I can die for it. I could feel him around..
Arnav: I never saw you in saree.. you look beautiful than my imagination.
Me: Jesus.. When did you come here? How are you? I mean.. oh man.. I can’t believe I’m seeing you.
Arnav: Take a breath Meera. Maya told she has got some surprise for me and I can see what was it..
I ran to him and hugged him tight.
Arnav: What can be wished more than seeing you in saree? (Shouted) Thanks Maya.
Maya walked in.. with a huge smile.
Maya: Dil walon ki Delhi hai.. We feel the love.. waise thanks.. Now you are accompanying her to Airport. Mein toh mast apne husband k saath movie dekhungi.. (Winked)
I knew Maya had some magical plan in her little brains. Woah.. there was a long uncomfortable silence and some energies around, I and Arnav all together again roaming and experiencing the same what we felt on Mumbai Airport. I didn’t want this….
Me: Ahh.. Arnav, you don’t need to bother yourself. I can go.
Arnav: Shut up Meera, these are few minutes I can see you. I missed you. 

When Facebook is Survival

Life itni aasan toh hoti nahi.. toh bus kat kari thi.. Arnav was always a part of my gmail, gtalk, messenger, sms, call everything. Pata nahi jab personal life itni screwed up hoti hai tab professional life itni badiya kaise ho jati hai.. I actually got to work on the project where I completely excelled. It was the best time of my office. Malhar, me and Divya were working together; yet somewhere I used to come back home, I wanted Arnav to be there to share everything happened.
Divya: Meera, tera phone hai!
Me: Kaun hai.. mummy hogi.. else no one calls me on office landline!!
Divya: Arnav hai.. puch raha hai meethi k parathe kaise banate hai?
Me: Oh fuck.. I was supposed to mail him the recipe!
Divya: You both are nuts.. behave like typical husband- wife..
Me: (picked up the call) Hello Arnav.. pehle meethi kaato.. suno yaar.. pehle sun toh lo..
Chats with Arnav were endless... almost upto 4 a.m. and it definitely reminded me those first few weeks when we were new to each other.
12.30 a.m. Tuesday (a facebook chat)
Arnav: Heya sexy!
Me: Arnav, mein ping marti hoon toh reply dene me khoon jalta hai kya tumhara?
Arnav: Daya max.. diya toh tha..
Me: hatt jhoote!
Arnav: tu jhooti!
Me: tu
Arnav: tu
Me: tu^infy
Arnav: tu tu tu tu....
Me: muawhhh...
Arnav: Saali..
Me: arre kiss k badle gaali.. ab nahi dungi kabhi! :P

Arnav: Zabardasti se le lunga! ;) aur gaali toh pyaar hai mera! ;)
Arnav bilkul change nahi hua tha.. its just we missed  each other a lot more than before. This was all exponential with time. We thought we will be habitual of not being without each other, but destiny wanted all different. As the time passed, our intensity of missing has growth by leaps and bounds!
Even if Arnav sleeps early someday or I'm on business tour, fb message was best for us.

Arnav,
Aajhi Bangalore se wapas aayi hoon. Tumhare liye kuch nahi laya.. Airport pe ekdum sexy banda mila tha.. but wo sab baad me.. tu bata.. office me sab theek hai na? Wo teri project partner Laika.. wo kaisi hai? Abhi bhi line marti hai? acha neendu aa rahi hai.. tc.. muawwhh...
 Meera

Reply-
Meera,
Yaar tu kisi sexy bande se mili.. sounds so gay.. as in tu bandiyon jaisi hai hi kaha? Laika is toh damn hot man... zhalli nahi hai.. ekdum bandiyon waali harkate hai.. but ek baat hai.. its all so easy with you..
Acha meine bhi sone jaa raha hoon.. kal football match hai.. mere guitar ki ek string tut gayi hai.. aur charger firse kho gaya! gn ma sweet bitch! ;)
Arnav

I used to spend my weekends with Piyu at hostel, just by watching movies or reading some novels.
Maya's call, Saturday 8.30 p.m.
Maya: Hello sweetheart..
Me: Hey Maya.. kitne din huye call bhi nahi karti..
Maya: Yaar yaha fursat hi nahi hoti..
Me: Haan.. dost huye pareye..
Maya: Shut up Meera.. Girish ko sambhalna is not my cup of tea..
Me: Woah..
Maya: Acha sun.. next weekend tu Delhi aa rahi hai.. mujhe na nahi sunna!
Me: Its not possible Mayu..
Maya: Girish bhi bol raha hai yaar.. tu faltu natak mat kar.. aa.. bus aa...

Facebook was always a survival and we were fine with it. Delhi janeke baat se I didn't understand why I was so nervous. Was Arnav's existence  there made me nervous? Why was I thinking of not meeting him? It was all so complicated. I did not even tell Arnav about this trip.
Those were for sure the tough times... loads of confusion and longing.. total ambivalence.

Alvida Mumbai

It was a normal weekend..
Saturday, 9.00 a.m. in kitchen

Me: Tum kabhi chai mat banana.. marne k ache tarike hai mere paas!
Arnav: Yaar hoon yaar.. itna toh sehle! ;)
Me: Daya maxx.. Bhad me jao!
Arnav: Waise tum serious ho kya?...
Me: Yeah. You make a pathetic tea!
Arnav: (Serious) I was talking about we being friends..
Me: Hmm.. thode flirt, rude, baddimag ho.. par unfortunately caring ho.. and mere friend ho!
Arnav used to be much busier those days. There was a little time which we can spend together, yet I never thought something serious going in his mind..
So I planned to spend Sunday as a day out on a beach!
Me: See, I have this bad habit of checking cute asses for you Arnav!
Arnav: (SRK style) Talking to me?
Me: Yeah. Arnav is anything wrong with you these days? You don talk to me like you used to!
Arnav: I got a job at Flipkart.. Delhi..
Hostel, the very next day
Piyu: Are you mad? Usse rokle dumbo.. everyone knows you both can't stay apart!
Me: Stop it P, you know I don't have right on him. Wo mera boyfriend nahi hai.. ye sab bolna itna asan nahi hai!
Piyu: Tujhe jo karna hai kar.. bus sunle.. royegi usse jane degi toh...
Piyu was so right about this. The very moment I thought about this, I could not control my tears..
It was awkward to talk about that and I knew he will accept that. It was among those good companies he wanted.
The day when Arnav was leaving Mumbai...
Airport, Mumbai
Me: Use your calender, I know you never flip the pages!
Arnav: Hmm...
Me: Aur..
Arnav: (He cut my words) You will always occupy my virtual world and.. yeah I do have balls to flirt with Delhi ki kudiyaan!
Me: And they say only women chirp non-stop!
I almost had tears and they were then quite visible.
Arnav: You know I can't bear it, stop crying like a baby!
I was home, all alone and was just pretending to be strong to swim through it. I knew the pain people face in long distance relationship. I had worse situation than them, I could not even tell Arnav that I want to be in relation with him.
There was a note on the table with his charger on it.

Meera,

  Yaar mereko wo senti wala bye nahi bolna aata..I'm not really good in this. I mean tearing pages neatly or writing or even getting senti about the stuff. 

  The months we have stayed together remain the most beautiful months of my life. You were of course the best thing happened to me in Mumbai. I hope we are friends again and will be so that I can pick you from Piyu's hostel, wait for you on railway station, wear my boxers to flaunt my tattoo or even dance like a Tarzan on your well maintained bed. If this all takes to make you and me "we" again.   So now I'm running short of words and I don't know how to say it but "take care" so that I can sleep with no worries! I know you will crack XAT soon. Aur mera charger chode jaa raha hoon. Humesha khoya hai.. tere paas rahega.. khoyega nahi! Alvida Mumbai.  

-Arnav Singh Dhillon

I was chocked. For the first time I had felt so sure of myself and my heart. I had an answer, I had a friend again and I knew I'm unconditionally in love with him.

Birds of a feather flock together

Life is like a cigarette, pee lo.. jal toh rahi hi hai...
It was normal weekend at home. After a rash new year it was a good start and now Arnav was a habit. We decided to have a long bike ride, dono raat bhar movies dekh rahe the…Friday night is always chill out.

January, Saturday 7 a.m. on Arnav’s bike
Me: Yaha kyun rukaya?
Arnav: To buy milk.. (winked)
Me: Asshole!
Arnav: You wanna lolly-dolly?
Did he touch his zip? Woah!
Me: Yeah and get two lil chocolates if you really have got some balls!
Arnav: Oho! Flirt game! Go baby, you win at my expense.
Life has been so easy with Arnav now. We actually were comfortable in talking problems, worries and anything.. almost crap!
We chose to start our weekend with Barista nearby. Arnav always do take liberty to order cappuccino for both without asking me..
Me: I don’t like cold coffee here, Piyu took me to some café near her home, it was awesome there.
Arnav: Here its best when served hot..
I need not say that he again flirted..
Me: What’s about the secret box in your cupboard.. what does it contain?
Arnav: Bad manners! When did you touch it?
Me: I thought we were good friends.. See I have got your number on speed dials!
Arnav: Ha-Ha-Ha.. That wasn’t funny.  Yet I accept that we are close. I was at Kota for my JEE prep. I wasn’t so hormonal pig then.
Me: Wow! Teenage crush and all huh?
Arnav: Ishita, she was with me there. The box contains some silly things of her left with me, like her hair clip, her pen. I thought I would return them to here like superman one day.
Me: That’s cute, Arnav Singh Dhillon.!!
Arnav: You tell me, did you have some silly crush in school?
Me: Yeah kinda. Like I didn’t know if it was just to change your fb relationship status or something else, but I did have one. I believed in all fairy tales, Raj from DDLJ, all those lovers from books of Nicholas Spark. In teens I no longer believed in answers for babies being secret left on roof when parents pray in different position!
Arnav laughed on this like anything. He actually had to put his cappuccino down and hold his chest. Rest of the Saturday was spent with Piyu and Shonali, my graduation friends…while this man of course had some trek stuff with his friends.
Sunday, 3 a.m.
Me: Arnav, Where are you? I don’t feel good.. I had a bad dream yaar…
Arnav: Let me pee in peace.. I’m in bathroom.
Me: Oops..
Arnav: Ab bolo… kya hua? Darrti kyun ho?
Me: (Reluctant to look at him) You.. boxer.. only…
Arnav: What? Why are you stammering?
Me: Only on boxers…
Arnav: Fuck off.. they are my dearest Versace shorts.. I can give up Armani for this.. Am I making you uncomfortable?
I laughed.. he laughed..fear gone..
Arnav: Come I will get you some tea..
We both working in kitchen was always fun.. may it be making cakes, trying new recipes or magee..
I was sitting on the counter when he was making tea for me. He looked so cute and sexy there.
Me: Arnav…Ek baat puchu?
Arnav: Haan pucho…
Me: Wo naval wala tattoo kaha tak jata hai?
Arnav had a tattoo done below his naval and it extended upto…. Donno where.. at least it appeared as if it goes inside his dear boxer! :P :P
Arnav: No one knows about it.. You wanna see it..
Arnav’s smile was wicked..
Me: Thanx.. but I’ll blush!
Arnav: People should really know how much you sometimes become cute and dirty at the same time!
Me: Tumhari sangat aur kya!
Arnav: No ma’am.. they say “Birds of a feather flock together”

Days to be Remembered...

2 p.m. my office, Tuesday
Me: Stop drooling. She is the receptionist.
Arnav: Yeah she is cute. Like even if such cute girls stand naked no man will get erection!
Me: Do you realize you used the word “erection” in my office…( hissed)
Arnav: Yeah I did use “the word”. Waise mein keys dene aaya hoon, I will be late at home.
It was the very first day of me staying with Arnav. Normal hectic work and crib about the boss; I left my office at 6.30 p.m. and was at home around 8 p.m.
9.30 p.m. “our home”
Arnav: I’m home
Me: You had your dinner?
Arnav: No, thought we could order a pizza tonight!
Me: Where were you? I was starving. (Irritated)
Arnav: Some important work!
Me: ….like meeting your girlfriends and letting your roommate starve. I hate you Arnav.
Arnav: Damn, I went to donate my blood.
The moment was frozen. I just wanted to hold him tight to me and hug him for being this good. And I did, although the man in Arnav can always beg to run his hands all over the juvenile body.:P :P
Piyu visited the place for she being curious about how we stay.
Thursday 7.30 p.m.
Piyu: Wow, pillow on table! Man, that is nasty.
Me: Shut up P! Arnav has no sense of keeping things on their respective place.
Piyu then started searching something in my room.
Me: Kar kya rahi hai?
Piyu: Ab contraceptive toh nahi dhundugi na… Charger dhund rahi hoon phone ka!
Me: Arnav k room me hoga.. uska charger hota kaha hai jagah par!
That was the first time I went to Arnav’s room with Piyu. It wasn’t for sure a good place to visit with your best friend for a charger. There was a huge poster on the wall saying -
“Three necessities of life – Booze, Boobs and Basketball”
It was yet expected from Arnav. Boxers lying on bed and some empty bottles of Axe; my eyes caught something very cute- it was a photo of may be Arnav dressed in blue Scooby doo boxers and oversized white Mickey mouse T shirt and his mom. This was I guessed the snap from his early teens.
Weekdays were always very busy yet were fun with Arnav. I never realized how time flew with us together.
Friday, 7.30 a.m., our home….
Me: Come on Arnav, get out of the bathroom. It’s not for your dancing and singing show!
Arnav: I’m shaving.. I mean my face.
Me: Whatever! Just come out. I don’t wanna be late to my office.
He opened and I punched him hard on his ribs.
Arnav: Oh that was hard and so is something down here (he looked down there)
Me: You disgust me!
Arnav: You are not as naïve as I think. Anyways tell me why do girls wear so beautiful nighties? (He was being naughty)
Me: (blushed) You know what… stop drooling.
Arnav: I can be a good dog.
Me: I don’t like pets.
Arnav: Kya fart hai!
Me: G-E-T L-O-S-T
There was always lil fights followed by cute flirts and then Arnav teasing me for nothing. I was happy and that was the only thing of concern.
Friday 8 a.m. at dining table
Arnav: Do you want this?
Arnav has already put his mouth on the tetra pack of milk leaving me no option of having it.
Me: Dhillon, you have already put your pious mouth on it.
Arnav: (smiled) It will taste better now, I bet.
Me: I will decide it. (I didn't know how but I drank it)
Arnav: Stop licking the spoon, you look horny!
Me: I have better things to do than seducing you.
Arnav: (switched to his teasing skills) Oh my lord, my future isn’t a straight road, but it’s a straight rod. I wish to try plains, mountains don’t work for me.
I knew where was looking at.
Me: Good for me if ever you turn gay! Now if you have stop staring at my assets let us move. It is already 9.

Maya's marriage

Goa, December
Arnav: Ahh.. Meera you do it so well.. perfect length
Me: Yeah, to a great extent. Looks good, doesn’t it?
Excuse me, I was so trying hard to adjust his tie, Arnav ko tie ki knot bhi nahi aati.
Maya’s marriage was all like a princess wedding in church, moreover it was at Goa. I still remember Maya convincing Arnav to attend her wedding.
Maya: Come on Arnav, you will have loads to fish!
Arnav: Now we are talking!
Maya: Do come, I will feel better.
Arnav: I prefer chicks coming first! (Laughed)
Maya: Jerk, you realize meri shaadi hai ek hafte me and you so want to be a chronic flirt. Come, I will get you many others to display your talent…
Arnav: (winked) You sound like a secretary of a pimp!
Maya: Done, I’m booking 2 tickets for you both… you will get days to spend with each other!
Arnav: Nights?
Ek baat toh pukki thi.. Arnav Singh Dhillon ko sambhalna sirf meri bus ki baat hai!
So for now after tying his lavender tie, I wanted to look good too..
Me: So, tell me, how do I look here?
Arnav: Are you like officially asking me to check you out?
Me: Dog I know you are fantasying!
Arnav: So what you want from me?
Me: A rope and fan!
Arnav: Meera come on, I know I ‘m out of league for you, yet you promised me to paint my apartment with me. Die another day!
Maya’s marriage was fun, an experience of seeing Arnav among my people. Maya and Girish were dating each other since teens; Maya has also believed that Girish is an angel. Aur mera angel? Angel aur Arnav? It is to rush to doctor for me, getting some ice cream when I yell at him for which I may term him, yet angels don’t indulge in cross talking about biological cycles nor they discuss the X-rated porn sites.
Maya ne shayad shaadi me bulana ek bahana tha, she felt that she can wash my brains on me staying with Arnav is not so bad idea. And she did it. Girish and Maya were to move to Delhi after their marriage.
After the marriage, Arnav and I decided to stay back and enjoy our weekend together away from office.
Some restaurant for lunch, Saturday and as always Arnav was very hungry after doing almost nothing!
Arnav: Wtf! Meera did you see this?
Me: What is it?
Arnav: If we order certain food of 300+ we get 3 beers!
So with all this yummy food and beers..
Arnav: Meera, my sweetheart, please pay!
As usual Arnav forgot his wallet at room… I so knew Arnav then.
We were then walking on the shore at evening.
Arnav: It’s so easy to talk crap with you, to ask you pay.. I feel nothing
Me: You are insane! (naughty)
Arnav: Dekh tu meri girlfriend hoti toh life would have been so fucked up! The girl is out of your league- but she is single- you ask her out- she refuses- you are screwed. Secondly- The girl is out of your league- and she is single- someone else asks her out- you are screwed! There is nothing like that between us! League ka sawal hi nahi hai, you are single, no one asks you out and I’m not screwed! Simple…
Me: You are so mean Arnav! I don’t let guys flirt with me and so I’m single and moreover I think it is tough to find love. For guys, it might be easier, give them a pair of great boobs and nice body and they can fool themselves that they are in love, at least for lil while…
Arnav: We all should experience some turbulence, speedy bumps, ugly turns, beers and ice creams, some assholes and some bitches!
Me: Sometimes it is so tough to understand you!
Arnav: (laughed) I can’t help you in that, but yes for now I can tell you that, that girl surfing there in bikini (he pointed towards a blonde) is giving me a boner even when she is yards away! Pata hai kaun hai?
Me: Pata nahi!
Arnav: Pata toh dono ka ek hi hone wala hai...
Me: Ho bhi sakta hai!
I blushed and he enjoyed it fullest. Next huge task was to shift to Arnav’s place back in Mumbai. Was I excited?